Allow yourself the time and all the space in the world to process this slowly. There is no need to rush any of this. You have waited your whole life…You are healing…deeply from a lifetime of pain. Only love and patience can provide lasting and transformative healing. A renewing of the soul.
Remember this as you go forward today and always. Nothing is worth the rush. All things ripen with time and there is a time for every season.
You have waited your whole life to feel and experience a love as big as the whole sky.
And it’s been inside of you your whole life-and now you know…
-With a heart full of all the love in the Universe for you.
It has been a while…sometimes it takes time to fully realize all that is transpiring, this break has been no different. It seems this season of my life is all about prioritizing and redefining who is important, what, if anything, is important and why. Looking at the output of others and asking myself, ‘do I deserve that?’. Looking at my output and inquiring if my output matches my intention, where they rank in my life. Am I over allocating for those that don’t reciprocate or even intend the same? I know I am guilty of not giving enough to those that deserve it, I have began the process of fixing this.
Do intentions ever really matter? Usually it feels the end result is what we are held to; right or not.
I am brought to a mantra that came to me over two years ago…there are no wrong paths…all paths regardless of the bumps and valleys lead us exactly where we need to go and to experience what we need to move forward, propel higher and teach another. Teach another. I constantly have to remind myself of this. These trials will help another, if I let go of my ego and share. I have to constantly remind myself of that in this season as it is so easy to practice negative self-talk and fault myself for feeling, trying, being human-failing.
Can I truly grow without failing? I doubt it, it is inevitable; I will hurt others, be hurt and I will fail. I demand continual growth.
Having experienced very rare moments of peace and quiet within lately, almost unbelievably quiet within, I have heard so much. I am grateful for the introspective time, time that was not wasted. Allowing pondering thoughts to process and reveal themselves to me in ways they never have. That’s the ruse about being quiet inside, you have to be ready to hear what the Universe has to say to you.
Life has allowed a continuation of a wonderfully restorative practice with a girlfriend I’ve known months shy of 25 years and love more than most could imagine. It’s funny how you forget the value of certain simple acts until they resume and you are flooded with joy and thanks to the stars for allowing magic to occur again.
Walking into this next season with eyes wide open.
There are no wrong paths. You get as much from your losses as you do your victories…all preparing you for your destiny.